Monday, September 29, 2008

New

New Favorite Song:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lobwr6pBbmU

New Favorite Video:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uw3Y84zXLwg

New Favorite Instrument: Pikasso.










New Favorite Starbucks Drink: Salted Caramel Hot Chocolate.
New Favorite Horrible Name for a Girl: Gwawr.
New Guilty Pleasure: NCIS
New Favorite Deli Sandwich: turkey, prosciutto, swiss cheese, avocado, wheat bread.
New Favorite Person to hate (besides Sarah Palin): Lady Gaga.
New Favorite Person to love: Robin Pecknold.
New Favorite Color: bright plaid.

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

Bunnies




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here are some picketies!

Friday, September 12, 2008

STACKS

I cleaned my room today.
I found stacks of stacks.
I don't know why I am so stacky.
Anyways, here is a glimpse into my world.



























































Summer is almost over, and daily I feel less and less suffocated by heat and heavy valley air.
I am excited for December.
In December I get a niece and a diploma. (finally).
Until then, I still have a lot of exciting days ahead.
Halloween, Thanksgiving, the first day of Fall, cooler weather...
I can't wait to wake up and feel the crunch of frozen grass beneath my feet,
and wear sweaters and scarves and boots and hats.
Okay, I'm drifting off now, better get some sleep. :)

Wednesday, August 27, 2008

Thoughts of Love

Love has been on my mind lately.
Not the noun, but the verb, the action of love, the choice.
Pure Logic would lead me to the conclusion that love is pointless,
and hurtful...
but I choose to go on loving anyways.
I've discovered that love isn't something you find, but something you create.
You can't chase after love, you have to make it happen where you are.


Love as a noun:


"But Love is such a Mystery
I cannot find it out:
For when I think I'm best reslov'd,
I then am in most doubt."
- Sir John Suckling


Love as a verb:


"Better to sit at the waters' birth,
than a sea of waves to win;
To live in the love that floweth forth,
Than the love that cometh in."
- George MacDonald



My dog, Merlin, who I love :)

Tuesday, August 12, 2008

New York, NY

I arrived in Indianapolis on Tues Aug 5 at 9:55pm.
Precisely thirteen hours later we started a 12 hour drive to Washington DC.
About 44 hours after that we drove to New York.
We stayed there for two nights in an amazing hotel.
Then we took an insane drive back to DC, slept for six hours and drove back to Indianapolis, and I left the following morning.
Sounds boring when I put it that way.
I will let the following pictures (which are out of order) help me reconstruct the week more creatively.




















Me and Emily went to the Smithsonian Museum of Natural Science. Holy Wow. We dorked out over bugs and gems and dinasour bones. We saw the hope diamond, which is not worth anything to me. I thought it looked like a trinket out of a quarter machine. The following picture however...

















This gem weighed about 11 pounds. It's a topaz from brazil, I think. I loved it.

















This is a picture I took in Central Park. It was a beautiful day, despite me feet hurting and new york people driving me nuts.

















Emily took this picture. We were at some trendy club in the "meat packing" district.
Seriously, it's a slaughter house neigborhood by day, and an overpriced club scene by night. It's a meat market any time of day. We danced to this "house" music that didn't sound the the "house" music I'm used to. I liked it.

















We took this picture for my brother Jimmy. It's pretty self explanitory. It was a restaurant just a block from our hotel. The quote says "put some south in yo mouth" which I thought was hilarious.






















This was taken at the Rocket Bar in DC. You can't really tell, but we are in the entrance and there was this big shaking robot that lit up hanging from the ceiling. I loved it. It had a skee ball machine, and that was really exciting to me. We met some boys that went to some nearby college that described themselves by stating which schools they had attended. Lame. DC was a fun place, but I couldn't live there.


















This was the inside of Emily's apartment in Indianapolis. I loved the view from the window. In the upper right hand corner is her halloween costume, (a tea cup). I loved it.






















We spent much of our time driving. This picture was taken soon after we entered Maryland from West Virginia. The views were spectacular. As were...























...the towns. This town was chock full of hillbillies. I really liked this church though, so I had to take a picture. The town was called "Cumberland" and I called it "Cucumberland" because I'm so freaking clever. We stopped there to eat.

I'm too tired to go on. Perhaps I will make another post to continue my unorganized retelling of my adventures on the east side of our nation. Until then...

Peace it out.
Cynthia

Monday, August 4, 2008

Queen of Leaves





I'm obsessed with the forest.


I wish I lived in one.


I live in a hot sweaty polluted valley.


I wish I lived in a forest by the ocean.


Someday.
I leave for Indiana/DC/NY tomorrow.
I should have some blogging material when I get back:)
love, cynthia

Thursday, May 22, 2008

Pictures tell the story.



My family fostered these kittens. Two of them have gotten adopted, now we just have the black one left, who needs to gain some weight. They were stinky, but SO much fun.




Our House got broken into. This is a picture of the sliding door that connects the Master Bedroom with the back yard. They used a chunk of flagstone to break in. I came home while "they" were in the house still, and they ran off. We were relatively lucky, but grrrr still.



These flowers off of our Passion Fruit Vine in the back yard provide me with endless inspiration. I will really be surprised if I don't start writing sci-fi sometime soon. :)


Jonah Bologna and Mema. What can I say, he smiles for his Aunt Cynthia






My friends from Paso Robles/ San Luis Obispo came and played a show and let me play with them, as impractical as it was. I love them for it. Well, I love them anyways but...eh. As you can see, I was feeling happy, and they couldn't wait to get home.





My cousins from Montana, (2 of the 4 pictured here), visited. I love kids.





Jonah plays with Merlin. It's really cute.



Merlin is King of the 2ft. tall rock! Watch out, he'll turn you into a squirrel just to teach you a lesson! :)

So, I've been busy as a bee.

I've pretty much been assigned to opening shifts at my work, without my consent.
Multiple 4am mornings do not one happy Cynthia make.
I need a vacation...but, on to the fun stuff!

Family is great. I don't know how I lived away from them for 5 years. What a ninny muffin I was.
Brunches, Teas, Family Birthday Dinners, Holidays, and the nightly chill time in front of the tube is equally treasured. I have truly discovered the best friends are family. At least in my case, this is true.

I am in love with my backyard right now. We've got flowers coming out of every nook and cranny, it's insane. To see pictures I took of les fleurs, go to www.flickr.com/photos/ohdeeryme.

I am learning more and more this year that I need to reconnect with art. It really is the only thing besides friends and family that motivates me. I've always wanted to write and illustrate Children's Books. I've always wanted to write a novel. I've always wanted to record a solo album. I've always wanted to create an art school/museum dedicated to children. I really should stop WANTING to do these things and start DOING them. Who knows, maybe it will lead somewhere. I need to take the risk, I think.

So, here is some childish food for thought.

In The Voyage of the Dawn Treader by C.S. Lewis, Eustace is a pain in the neck boy who "liked animals, especially beetles, if they were dead and pinned on a card." Among other things he liked to bully his "friends" and blamed them for every bad thing that happened.
He was feeling especially sorry for himself when "he had turned into a dragon while he was sleeping. Sleeping on a Dragon's hoard with greedy, dragonish thoughts in his heart, he had become a dragon himself."

It's a children's story, but that small vignette hit me like a brick wall.

Lately I have been really frustrated at work, with my life, with everything. I will spare details, but I've basically turned into a walking disappointment. Not a disappointment to anyone, but myself. So, as us humanoids usually do, I started pitying myself. I started blaming my icky feelings on things that I have no control over. I can't control my work schedule (apparently), and I can't control the new management at my store. I can't control Sac State's budget cuts, and I have no choice whether or not the classes I needed got cancelled. I was holding bitterness in my heart, and in the process, I turned into a cold, bitter, complain-y person. Go Figure.

Why is it that we have to see the mess in another room before we recognize the clutter in our own?

So, thank you Clive Staples Lewis, for once again reminding me, post mortem, to be a good person.